Me

I’m a martial artist, a regular artist, an avid gamer, a DM, and a father. I love books, movies, and food. This blog has personal tone, so you’ll likely learn much more about me.

The Blog

I decided to start Level Grinding, because I was feeling a bit lost in my life. I have a lot of skills but have always had a hard time focusing them in one direction. What little direction I did have was demolished recently after the birth of my son. He was a surprise, and his appearance forced a very dramatic change in my life. I had a lot of trouble managing my priorities once he was at the top, because everything else lost importance. I also didn’t know the first thing about caring for an infant.

I focused too little on myself and began to fall into depression, not realizing the cause. My goals still remained, but I didn’t see a path to reach them anymore. I was stagnant and fading fast. I had gained weight, lost some mental agility, and forgot my motivation. I felt like I was an NPC in somebody else’s story or, at the very best, a miniboss.

At my absolute lowest, I actually saw a way out. I could focus my energies towards making myself into someone better. That left the question: who do I want to be? I had lots of things that I would like to do, but hadn’t really committed to any of them. Now that my son had arrived the waffling had to stop. It was high time for a hard Q&A session with myself.

Q: Am I happy with who I am?
A: No.

Q: What makes me unhappy about myself?
A: I’m not a published or working author. I’m overweight and unhealthy. There are a lot of things I wish I was good at that I’m plainly not. I’m worried that I’m not as smart as I used to be.

Q: What are you going to do about your health?
A: I’m going to dramatically change my lifestyle. I am going to wake up early and work out every day. I’m also going to change my diet permanently.

Q: How will you stay motivated?
A: I’m going to turn my real life into an RPG and cast myself as the hero, developing rules, stats, and a clear path of progression.

Q: What are you going to do about working as a writer?
A: I am going to create great writing samples and submit them to video game companies and film studios in order to gain creative writing employment. I’m going to write a novel, and I’m going to keep a blog to constantly hone my skills.

Q: How will you get smarter?
A: I am going to really challenge myself with my recreational reading. I’m going to craft and develop new skills, checking them off one by one.

Q: Will you be happy with yourself when this is done?
A: I don’t think this will ever end, but I think trying will make me happy.

And –like magic– I felt validation. By simply planning out my life, I had renewed purpose. I can be the man I want to be. I have clear goals to work towards. Most importantly, I will set a good example for my son. If I can become someone that I, myself, would admire, I may one day be worthy of his admiration as well.

As for the blog, my hope is that anyone struggling with motivation will see how much a person can change if they’re willing to just pick up their crown and wear it.